Well, I've gone and done it.....I've accepted a job offer starting on 28th November. I've been feeling so confident lately I thought, I want a proper job, make friends, go to the Christmas party and be 'NORMAL' (whatever that may be in this crazy world we live in)
The nerves have started but I'm working on that. Everytime an anxious thought comes into my head, I chase it away and make the thought so small, it's hardly there!!!!
This is a real biggy for me and I feel close to tears when I think about facing the big world again but I refuse to live my life like this anymore. I've got just as much right as anyone else to be out there doing what I want to do. I'm going to be 40 next February and I want my life to begin and stop hiding! Sorry for the rambling on but I can't talk to anyone else about this, I just have to keep saying how happy I am to have been offered the position.
If anyone can give any extra hints on how to keep calm and focused, I'd be happy to hear them. I'm off now for my coffee and a read of my many self-help books.
Jem xxx