I have been feeling anxious for over a week now, before this I had depression for 6 weeks so my thinking was negative. Now I keep retching and sometimes sick and am so anxious about it. I have lost my apetite and am terrified I am going to fade away and die! I know the more I worry the worse I will make it ,but it is so hard not to worry and feel anxious about it. I am anxious I am going to ruin Christmas. I even took 5mg of Diazapam on Thursday to get me through my work Christmas dinner. I have never taken it in the day before (it was given to help me sleep),

Has this ever happened to anyone else, please tell me the doctors just won't let me die. I know I am sounding irrational, but I want to be honest about what I am thinking. I am even googling ways they feed people who cannot eat, this is really getting out of hand.