Hi everyone,
I'm feeling a bit down right now and just generally confused. I'm currently in the UK on my own and struggling with life, but coping just about. I am desperate to see my wife again who is living in Peru whilst we sort out the visa thing. I havent seen her for 7 months now and in 3 weeks it will be our 3rd Wedding Anniversary. I had planned to go over there to be with her on that day.
However, my nerves struck and sent me into so many panics i couldnt cope and i decided to cancel my trip. I had bought the flight tickets and everything.
I have previously struggled to get across there on my own - living out there for 18 months - then fly back on my own. However, this time i just couldnt do it. Just planning the trip made me a nervous wreck.
So, now i've cancelled the tickets - and lost about £400 to the airline who wouldnt refund in my situation. I'm still so disappointed that this stupid anxiety has got the better of me and i can't go when i so desperately want to. Even now i'm thinking of ways to go there, but i know i just need to put it behind me and move on and try to get better.
Gregor