Night of pure hell!

[Redrainbow]

Well woke up at 3 am after the usual nightmares all night tossing and turning, mind racing worse than ever, could not stop thinking about something, i was crying and upset. Laid there until about 4.10 am, was going to come down on pc see if there was anyone on here to talk too, but then i would have no chance of getting back to sleep, as it was i didn't get to sleep until about 12 last night.
I'm going to try to talk to someone today samaritans, whoever, my next meeting with the nurse/councillor is not for another week! There is just so much racing through my mind all the time.
I'm not hiding the fact i have severe depression and anxiety and receiving treatment from anyone, i have it and thats that! I don't care if people want to call me a loony, after all no-one can do any worse to me than what my own mind is doing to me now, INFACT i don't think things can get much worse than what they are now.
Sometimes i just want to shout out what's going on in my head!!!!!
Regards Wayne.

[claire m]

i would get in touch with your gp. and ask for your therapist they can visit you more often

[luckymach]

sorry to hear you have had an awful night wayne, agree with claire, contact your gp, hope you will b ok today, and there are always your friends on here, who really know how you feel..thinking of you
Sharon x

[Alicat]

I agree. I'd go back to your GP if I were you. How are things now?

[smudger]

Hi. I'm sorry you are still suffering Wayne. Definately see the GP. Bear in mind how bad I felt and very nearly gave up with my medication. It's taken a while though. You need all the support you can muster to get you through this an it wouldn't hurt to talk to the Samaritans. I hope you don't mind but I would be interested to hear if you think they helped. There have been times when I think I should have called them, one specific time when I ran out of the house in the snowy weather in a right state. My husband found me eventually thank goodness. I was wondering about the nightmares, I avoided anything upsetting on the tv for a while because I dreamed loads of vivid dreams that seemed to last ALL night! I even avoided the news. I also realised I needed to time my medication right so that when I went to bed I was drowsy. Late nights really disturbed my sleep patterns too.Any thoughts on this?