on wed 17 march me hubby our 4 daughters and my mum are driving 4 hours away to a travel lodge to stay the night then in the morning on the thursday we are going to disney land paris by eurostar.
i have not been out the country for 6 years and never been with the children and i am very excited for them in fact i cant wait to see their faces!
my biggest worry is the fact we are going with mum and that sounds awful bless her as shes paid for us all to go and i love her dearly. the main prop is she knows nothing about my panic/anxiety what so ever and i guess that makes me feel more on edge but theres no way i would tell her either so i feel in a no win situation. i have been this way for 10 years now (im 27) and i take 5mg cipralex a night. i have felt better than this during the last 10 years but have also felt worse.
i know theres going to be lots of walking when we are away and this its self i am dreading because i will have no 'safe place' to go to.
i have read dr claire weekes book and found it very helpful but i cant put it into practice when i am on this holiday!
my problem is i get a lot of dizzy/off balance spells then that makes me feel panicky and its a big vicious circle
please if anyone has any kind words or advice i would be very grateful xx