I have been off work since the start of December with Phobic Anxiety and have been taking Citalopram (10mg) for 5 weeks. I have made slow but steady progress so far, but I still don't feel back to my old self.
I went back to work last week for just one day (Friday 13th!) just to see how I get on and to see how I cope with eating lunch there.
Surprisingly i was fine all day. I felt quiet edgy throughout the day, but other than that I survived. I even managed to eat my way through a plate of fish and chips, which was very surprising.
Today i smy second day in work and it doesn't seem to be going quite as well.
I fell OK in myself, I don't feel unwell, but I don't feel very happy either. I feel very tense, to the point where I find that I have been clenching my Teeth all morning and my shoulders are tensed. I feel like I'm going to explode either in tears or in rage. I feel like a good scream out in the open might clear the tension.
I'll be going for lunch in a little while and I'm hoping all will be OK. Work are very supportive and know exactly what's going on, so leaving work early is a option.
Just wondering though, is this ho wmost people feel when they return to work?