I know im a broken record and bless all of you for listening to all my woes! As I said I am definatly feeling different and my anxiety has been better in the mornings. However, not better enuf. I still wake up with the same thoughts just looping in my head. I live in fear of the DP. I eat, sleep and breath it. I have been crying on and off for three days now. I dont want to die but I dont want to live if its gonna be like this. If the DP would go away then I wouldnt be anxious or depressed. Its taken my life away from me. I feel hopeless. I have another therapy appt today and I will discuss it with her.
I am now over 30 days on my meds and although I do think its helping with the morning anxiety im very worried that it is making the DP worse. I dont even know if thats possible??? My Dr and therapist said the DP is a symptom of my anxiety, but I truly worry that anxiety is from the DP. When I first went to the Drs 10 weeks ago to see if I could get on an AD I was completly functional. I was just having some minor anxiety issues. I took that AD for 5 days and on the 5th day I started feeling the DP and its just gotten worse and worse. I stopped that first med after 5 days and didnt go on this new med for 4 weeks. I keep wondering if the initial med is what sparked this all off. I dont know how I could go from being functional and social and normal to being like this, when I was fine before I went to dr. Im sorry this is so long - thanks for reading - any words would be welcome. Love Chrissy