I am posting here because I know a lot of you have been through what I am going through. I hope you can offer me some supprt.

I have been having problems with my health for over a year now. I have had some anxiety and uncertainty in my life due to being made redundant in my job and the break up of my marriage. I have had several short term jobs and havent managed to secure any certainty in terms of money. I have also had to move back in with my family as I cant afford to live independantly. Furthermore I am single for the first time in over 6 years.

However, most of these problems surfaced after I started having health issues. It started with having these really odd spells where I would feel really dizzy and weak for about ten mins. It was as if the ground ws rushing towards me and as if my legs were going to buckle. I would panic and be unable to breath. I had horrific headaches and aches - mainly in my right site.

I was diagnosed at the time with migraine headaches and a suspected viral infection and was hospitalised as my heart rate was so fast.

I experienced tinling and pains in my right hand along with the headaches and was reffered to a neurologist. I had two brain Mri's and a lunber puncture - all clear. As was all bloodwork - neuro - exame - CAT head scan and for that matter tests for anxiety. ( charts that you fill in and score)

However, the problems wont go away. I am having stiffness and pain in my legs and when I walk I feel lik ethey may buckle. I get the dizzieness when the ground rushes towards me. Im tired ALL THE TIME. No matter how long I sleep Im still fatugued. The headaches have eased off but Im still getting tingling in my hands and feet - especially at night. SOmetimes I wake up at night and both my feet are numb.

I accept and know that some of my symptoms are anxiety related. However, the intensity and frequency of some of it terrifies me. Ive been to the doctor so many times. SOmetimes I think I get too scared to tell hm how intensly some of these things effect me -especially my legs. He is very understanding and thinks that some of this may be post viral and some anxiety. Post viral and anxiety I can take. What terrifies me the most is MS. My uncle - who is only 45- has this. He is in a full time care home and completly unable to care for himself. What scares me is that it took a long time for him to be diagnosed and I fear this is what Ive got. The tests suggest otherwise - but the symptoms wont go away.

I have been avoiding going on anti -anxiety meds - for the reason that Im scared they wont help. I SOOOO much want this to be anxiety related and fear that if I go on meds and they do not help me - the cause of my symptoms must be something more sinister. I ve lost a year of my life to this and I am terrified that I will never be me again.

Thank you very much for reading this post. This forum gives me a lot of strength and if you reply - I thank you in advance.