Hi Guys
Well here goes! This is really hard for me to write because I just have no idea whats wrong with me but I keep fearing i'm going mad .
I think I may be suffereing depersonalization/derealization! Not sure which and not sure if that is whats wrong . I have read heaps on the internet and on this site and I seem to have bits of each. I feel like i'm going around in a dream. Its like i'm more aware of me inside than I am of the outside world. This makes me really panic and I find myself thinking stuff that I have no idea how it got there and why i'm thinking it. I panic about heaps of thoughts etc. Even driving to work today i saw something in the road and was sure it was a huge spider on the road (I live in Australia and believe me they can get very big lol) , when i got near though it was a tree branch in the shape of a spider i must admit, which was blowing in the wind. Normally i'd just laugh at my stupidness but this time I thought oh my god, i've definately lost it . As I say, I just feel like every thing i do i'm doing automatically like i'm watching it on a movie or something.
I have suffered anxiety/panic attacks etc for many years. I have taken Inderal for over 20 years and even thought maybe it has changed and that is what is causing me these symptoms.
Any advice would be appreciated.
thanks
Tracy