Hi - I wondered if anybody could offer me any advice.
I am 34 years old and having been suffering for 10 + years. Nobody has ever told be what is wrong with me - but at the moment things are pretty bad.
I think it all started about 12 years ago when I was travelling on holiday with my husband, we were on our way home when I started to feel sick. We were about four hours from home and that was aweful. Although I wasnt sick I felt so ill.
Since then, over the years things have slowly progressed - I now cannot travel more then 10 minutes from home. I hate going to the shops - i shop onthe internet when I can, we do not have holidays and since Xmas I have started to work from home for my husband.
I have been seeing a councillor but this involves a 20 minute car journey into town, on my last visit, three weeks ago, I felt so sick and shaky when I parked the car, I was crying, and really had to make an effort not to jump in the car and leave. I ended up staying for 10 minutes and had to run back to the car. I was struggling to get my breath, felt really sick and really shaky and felt not with it at all. The need to escape was so great it left me feeling very scared. Since then I have not been able to go anywhere apart from the local shop and the school run - all with a 10 minute drive.
I dread the weekends in case anybody suggests going out - Im running out of excuses! I really feel that I need to now what is wrong with me and how I can try to get over the way I feel. I worry incase the children are ill and had to be taken to hospital - at the moment I wouldnt be able to go - Please tell me I'm not mad!
Thanks for reading this.
Love LPx