About 4-6 weeks ago I noticed a circular patch of discoloured skin on my right breast. The breast itself has been itching lately (a sign of breast cancer I am told), and, well, just feels different but I can't pinpoint why?
The itching is not actually on the patch of skin (which is similar to an oval shaped bruise), but elsewhere on the breast. It has a redish border and is not raised or scaley. Completely flat patch of skin but obviously is there for a reason and sadly something I am becoming obsessed with. (Before anyone asks, it isn't a bruise, it was a faint oval patch that is now noticeable. It isn't hot to touch and is not bright red or inflamed. I have no lumps that I can feel but the breast is very tender).
So, rather than go to the Doctor (absolutely terrified), I obsess about it on the internet. I have seen similar photos now and they all point to CTCL (a type of non hodgkins lymphoma that affects the skin) or when I type in my symptoms, it always points to breast cancer. For the last few weeks now I have spent a good part of the day scouring the internet for information and what to expect when I am diagnosed. I am so petrified. I know I suffer from Health Anxiety and having tests relating to my bowels and reflux over the next couple of months and as if that isn't stressful enough, I have ACTUAL visual symptoms.
I can't see anywhere on here of people having fears of this type of skin cancer or these particular symptoms of breast cancer. I know everyone's gonna say "go to the doctor" and I plan to on Tuesday but to go another whole weekend wondering and worrying is making me ill. I now have the most horrible headache, feeling tearful and once again, will turn to a bottle of wine to block out my fears and headache, even though I know all the wine will do is give me a bad tummy in the morning....HELP!!!
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