Hi
Ive never posted on a forum before. I too suffer with health anxiety and its starting to take over my life. I always worried a bit about getting ill, but once I had my first daughter 3 years ago it went into overdrive. After 6 months it seemed to settle down so that it was managable, but since I had my 2nd daughter 5 months ago its gone haywire.
I think constantly about getting ill, and I mainly worry about getting cancer. Im terrified that I have it and I don't realise and the doctors wont be able to do anything for me by the time they discover it. I am frightened to go to the doctor. Every ache and niggle I convince myself is a symptom.
I imagine what I would write in a letter to my girls for when they are older. I cry at the thought of my husband being alone and brinign up 2 kids on his own.
Do other people feel like this? I have seen the doctor once about how I feel, she told me its health anxiety and is common after having a baby. But that doctor has now left and I don't want to see another in case they think I'm a nutter
Its ruining my life, I feel like I can't look forward as I worry I wont be here. I also think what if I have some kind of 6th sense, and there is really something wroing and thats why I keep thinking this way.
Then reality creeps in every so often, and tells me I'm being irrational. All my blood tests during pregnancy came back perfect, so surely they would have flagged up something?
Please let me know your experiences, it would really help to know I'm not going mad.
MD x