depressed

[andrew england 2]

i have yet another gp's appointment for tomorrow and i am feeling really down and depressed about it all

why me, i have never done drugs or drank bottles of whiskey, i always worked hard and everytime i have walked into a gp before i have gone in with hope that things will get better, this time it feels like there is no point going, i feel encased in a wall of glass btw me and the world, if someone gave me a million pounds tomorrow i wouldnt feel any happier.

for all the world i know this can be called clinical depression but it just feels like there is not one single drug out there that can help me feel normal again, cant drink beer or i get panic attacks, cant smoke cigs or i get acute anxiety, cant drink coffee or i get all jittery, and all i am left with is feeling like i am encased in a wall of glass btw me and the world and i feel so depressed that i will go to the gp and he will give me new medication, i will feel ill from the side effects so i am gonna feel even worse than now

i need a miracle, i just feel really depressed cos my past experience tells me there is no hope and all the reading in the forum and all the nice msgs i get and all the self help books and all the life changes and all the keeping busy in the world arent helping today

all my old friends will down the pub tonite watching a band and having fun and getting drunk and all they get the next day is a bad head and here is me no friends no girlfriend no job no nothing - just another trip to the gp for another round of meds that probably wont work anyway

sorry for this post i am full of self pity but i dont care really that i am full of self pity cos i feel like i am one of the unlucky ones who nothing ever works for and that i could be approaching the end of my life

i just want to be normal and have fun in normal ways no more valium no more nite nurse cold cure to make me sleep

sorry

[wendy]

Hi Andrew

I know how you feel, had an awful day of it today, but we have to stick at this and dont let it get the better of us,

I was convinced I was dying today yet as usual am still here, it takes our personal strength and only we can beat this with determination!

See tomorrow as a new day, discuss all your thoughts with your doctor and believe you can overcome this and you will

Good luck for the Doc's

Take Care

Wendy x

[Alexandra]

HI Andrew

Good luck for the docs tommorow.

I felt like you yesterday (Was abit down in the dumps) its just a little blip thats all & it will pass.

You will get through this.

Keep positive & take care



Alex

Many People Will Walk
In & Out Of Your Life
But Only True Friends
Will Leave Footprints
In Your Heart

[Keitharcher]

Andrew

Why do you need to get drunk to enjoy yourself, its expesive and off putting the next day when you are nursing a hangover. I also feel that you are starting to break down the glass wall, you have confided in NMP, whicj has some of the best people in the world as members. There is a miracle cure, its called re-evaluation and positivity (well it was for me). I used to be the way you are then i thought one day I will beat this and started to become more positive, it was a monster, it grew and before i knew it I was positive. Its not easy mate but you have taken the first steps in confiding in NMP

Keith

[Southern_Belle]

Andrew,

I think it is a very positive thing that you don't drink, smoke or do drugs. I was also very sensitive to medications and had to try many to find the right one. If you opt to go that route hang in there, you will find the right match. We all have our down days where we think nothing is going right but you will beat this! You already have the above things going for you that so many others are fighting to get so be proud of yourself for that.

Bel

[dave11282]

Andrew,

I know how you feel. I have PTSD and chronic anxiety. I fully understand how you feel at mo.

I too am so fed up with this endless cycle of trying to undo the knots. Like you I see others leading a normal life. I cant socialise due to my symptoms either.

I have had to give up alcohol . I did not drink that much anyway. I had a few glasses of wine a few weeks ago, first alcohol in months. I felt really crap for a week afterwards. Poor sleep, increased anxiety. And it heightens my depression. So although sometimes I gasp for a glass of wine, I remind myself how i will feel for days after.

That enclosed glass bubble is the same for many of us. Like you again I have read many books. They dangle and dont deliver sometimes. You cant tell yourself life is ok, when you genuinely feel like crap!

All I do now is accept, you have to accept that this is the way it is. I beat myself up over everything, and it just adds to the frustration of it all.

check this guy out

http://www.lifesucks.info/

not sure if he has chronic anxiety or PTSD, but he sure is fed up!

Dave

[chop]

Dave,

That site is great!

I actually found it to help me and I ahve eben going thru similar to you lately.

Thank you for the site, I actually liked it and made me feel better!

Chop

Learning to under react

[andrew england 2]

i agree chop - that site dave sums up everything perfectly and made me laugh at the unlaughable

[dave11282]

glad you enjoyed link,

mad me smile as well. Nice to know I am not the only one with a different view on life.

Dave