Im so lonely and in danger of losing the very few friends i have, friends I have known for years are turning their backs on me instead of being supportive like i really need atm. Its partly my own fault as i let people down an awful lot by saying i will go out or meet up with them then i let them down as i cant bring myself to leave the house. I have always been open with my friends about the anxiety i suffer with and i hoped they would support me, but they are just fed up with me now. Im finding it so hard to make a better life for myself with no support. I know i am a crap friend atm but iv always tried to be understanding when my friends have problems. Its also my dream to meet a special bloke who cares for and understands me, havent dated for over 2 years, its a bit difficult when i panic everytime someone talks 2 me (on the rare occasions i go out), i look really rude & standoffish even tho i dont mean to. I dont want much out of life just a good job a happy family & a happy me, but those things seem so far out of reach atm even tho im 21 and have my whole life ahead of me, it all seems so hopeless atm.
Sorry to waffle just needed 2 let off some steam
Suzy xx