Feeling sorry for myself and so tired

[gary_2.0]

Feeling a little sorry for myself. I know I shouldn't, moreover I don't like to.

I feel friendless and alone, abandoned and unloved. See? What a misery.

Recently finished with my girlfriend of around 10 months. Bizarre ending: It was like Invaders of the Body Snatchers. Mind you she does suffer with multiple personality disorder - or is histrionic personality disorder, I forget which? She has a lot of problems so I shouldn't be surprised, but I thought, 'At last I've found someone who accepts me for who I am - anxiety and all.' Because the change was almost instantaneous, it came as quite a shock. We were very close and talked about everything. To have that vanish overnight is awful. On top of that, I was suffering badly with Sciatica and my Mum was in the hospital, so had no one to turn to. These things always come at once don't they? Why the hell is that?

Anyway, so now I'm at that stage of feeling abandoned and mourning the loss of a really good friend as well as partner. We helped each other out a lot you see so it's left a huge void. And I miss her dog!

Please, don't tell me, 'You'll get over it', 'You'll find someone else', and other cliches. I know they're sincere, but they don't work on me. I'm just trying to get this out of my head - sorry.

I have plans - goals - for this year and had hoped to share them. Now I have to manage alone, again, and it's so tiring. I'm not getting any younger!

Thanks for reading this. Hope it makes sense. I's a very condensed version obviously. I love NMP. It's always good to know you lot are here. Please excuse me if I don't acknowledge any replies immediately, I really need to sleep.

[paula lynne]

This is all to do with your recent break up I think. I will not tell you to just get over it. Its like someone has ripped a piece of you away...it hurts. Yes, time will help. But if there is no way you can reconcile, you have to go through the grieving process....it may take a while. Then, when you feel like you can, start making plans and try and acheive your goals. You had a life before your partner, you will again. You will be ok in a little while, dont give up x

[bluesparkle]

gary
sending you lots of
i know that prob doesnt help right now ...
you are not friendless... although i know what you mean by it feeling like it.
you should have given me a shout, i will always listen...
i didnt even realise all this was going on ...but know how you feel (apart from the physical pain).
keep in touch
rach
x

[ElizabethJane]

Hugs Gary I'm sorry to hear that you have broken up with your girlfriend. EJ.

[eeyorelover]

You're NOT feeling sorry for yourself! You've got sooo much going on right now! No wonder you're tired! More like physically and emotionally exhausted! Take some time to re-energize and heal!
Much love and positive energy from me headed your way!!!
(((HUGS)))
xxx
Sandy

[Aurora86]

Hi Gary,

I'm new to this forum and just read your post. I'm sorry to hear you are having a bad time at the moment. A relationship break-up can feel like a bereavement, and there's no quick fixes. However, you need to try to keep yourself busy. When I went through a bad break-up a few years ago, it was the memories of the relationship that I couldn't get out of my head. It's hard when you have invested so much time into a person/rel'ship. Try to keep busy and create new happy memories for yourself. Stick to your plans/goals, and try to achieve them for yourself.

I really hope you feel a little better soon.

Laura x

[suzy-sue]

Sorry Gary x Hope you feel better soon .Luv Sue xx

[gary_2.0]

Sorry Rachel, I'm not very good at asking for help and it's the old guilt-trip of, 'not wanting to bother anyone, even though I trust you and know you're sincere'. x

I've taken note of all your kind words. Thank you everyone. I really do appreciate it.

I'm doing my best to move forward. At the moment it's like having a bad hangover and thinking, Never again!'

[RosieXXX]

xxx

[gary_2.0]

Thanks Helen.