I have been writing a diary of my experience on escitalopram and the main thing I have learnt from writing my diary is just how inactive I have been over the period since I began it.
Small changes may have have come from taking the anti depressant but they are so small I am unable to see them myself it certainly has not been like a ray of light of breaking thru the darkness.
I put my spare house up for sale a few weeks ago and it was rented out and I was trying to sell a house with a sitting tenant which isn't the best thing to do esp' when the house quite clearly needs work doing on it to make it saleable after having had a tenant in it for a few yrs which has left the house scruffy.
Well she is leaving next week and I need to hang a new front door and 3 internal doors and a new back gate and do some small basic brick work and relawn the back lawn as well as generally clean and smarten the property up, this will be a stressful and emotional thing for me to do and to be honest I would have preferred the house to sell straighaway but the market is quiet and I do need to be busy and do things that do have a real motivation behind them and I also have a clicking in my leg and knee which while not painful is worrying and untested in a work enviroment and waiting for the nhs is like waiting forever so while it will hurt to do this work it does have the answer to making me busy and keeping my mind off worrying and it will test my knee out and it all goes well the house will be finished in a few weeks I will reduce the price and I will get it rid and I will go back to work.
I just have no answers as to how the escitalopram is working yet cos I have missed a few doses thru drinking which wasn't a clever thing to do but until I live an active life and live in normal stresses and strains and have problems and rewards I will not know if it is working at all.
So wish me good luck pls............................................... ..............