I am a girl, almost 18 and I've always have had severe social anxiety, possibly selective mutism I think, mild agoraphobia (can't attend normal school right now), depression, shortness of breathe, suicide, OCD, ADD, slow learner, clumsy, possible PTSD, Insomnia, Paranoia, mild sexual abuse, worries, racing thoughts, confusion, and probably Avoidant personality disorder, and I live in fear and lots of issues. I see things differently I'm really lonely, I've alienated most of my friends and I'm looking for new ones. I have always been constantly anxious. I'm awkward. I coverup everything because I'm embaressed,it is very very difficult. I am very unique, I've learned that I like being different, and I wanna be able to be myself. I really am an interesting person, I'm funny, talented, I'm generally honest, I smile alot, even if it's fake. I found out I'm actually a genius, I believe I'm very attractive, (used to be an ugly duckling but wow can things change ) I've been told I'm a model, but on the inside I'm hurting I want to know if I can relate to others. I have been seeking help, which I dont enjoy but I've made tremendous steps forward but I still am struggling....I know there is always hope :>