Hello,
I have often consulted the forum in the past as a lurker when looking for guidance but I now have a specific enquiry so I have decided to sign up to this wonderful community. I'm hoping somebody can offer some advice.
For the past two years I have been suffering from debilitating anxiety that is all focused around the function of my heart. It began with panic attacks and thudding heart with dizziness and tunnel vision, as well as aches and pains in the chest, shoulders and arms over a period of weeks before eventually I went to A&E. As you would expect, everything checked out fine but there was some concern over my heart rate (around 140 even after calming down and laying in the hospital). I returned to A&E a month or so later and this time, whilst in the ambulance, my HR was varying wildly from 80 to 140 within a few beats and I was getting incredibly nauseous. The ECGs all were fine though apparently so I was referred to the care of my GP.
From the GP I was referred to a cardiologist and had full work up done (3 day monitor, stress test, bloods, echo, etc.) and found that I have sinus tachycardia but was once again told that "the problem" was anxiety. At this point I should mention that I have a long history with anxiety and panic, particularly health anxiety and OCD.
To cut a long story slightly less long (sorry for rambling), over the ensuing 18 months, I have tried to combat my stress and anxiety and have succeeded in reducing the panic attacks and my overall resting HR has dropped from around 100 to 70-80.
However in the last year, my symptoms have become much more specific and provoked more by physical things than by anxiety or stress. I have been struggling with standing up from a sitting or lying position, bending or squatting down, climbing the stairs, stretching and yawning, passing a bowel movement , singing, and on a particularly bad day, even things like drinking too fast or swallowing hard.
What happens is, I get a feeling of faintness and a wave of pressure and nausea which I can only compare to the feeling of G-force when you take off in a plane. This lasts for a few seconds and what follows is a feeling of weakness particularly upper body weakness and a thudding heart with late, skipped beats as I exhale.
The late heart thuds feel as though my heart wants to beat earlier but is delayed and becomes overly full with blood and then has to pump extra hard. It's an incredibly unpleasant squeezing sensation. When this occurs after climbing the stairs it can also be painful. Not the same kind of anxiety related muscular chest pain that I have previously experienced, but a pulsing tenderness that I feel in my chest and throat with each thud.
I'm quite content with the results of my cardiology tests and feel that my heart is healthy, so this is no longer a fear. However, it didn't take me too much Googling to find out about the vagus nerve and its function and as my symptoms are often associated with problems with acid reflux, bloating and a sense of relief after burping, I'm pretty sure that this is where my problem lies.
The problem is that knowing what is causing these issues isn't making it any easier. I have been out of work for the last year because I can barely function. I can't climb the stairs, I can't lift anything, I can't even bend down to tie my shoes. Getting up in the morning is the hardest part of the day because showering and getting dressed leaves me feeling totally weak and nauseous.
I have been going back and pestering my GP again recently after 6 months of being almost totally housebound. I went through 6 sessions with a PWP, then I was put on Sertraline but this gave me an incredibly upset stomach. I also decided that I don't want to be on mood medication as I have no problems whatsoever with depression or low moods. More recently, I have been going to CBT, then I was put on Propranolol. The beta blockers were great at stopping the thudding but the late beats, pressure in chest and weakness remained. After a few days they started to give me horrendous migraines and I became concerned that beta blockers would not be good if I'm having problems with the vagal nerve as reducing my overall blood pressure could lead to vasovagal syncope. My GP agreed and has prescribed me another SSRI, Citalopram. This brings us to today.
I haven't started on the Citalopram yet because I have read that it shouldn't be taken if you are experiencing palps, irregular HR or tachycardia (all of which I am). I have requested another appointment with my GP to discuss this. I have brought up my vagal theory with a few doctors and none of them want to entertain the idea. They want to treat the anxiety and while I recognise that there is a relationship between the two, I think I can handle the anxiety myself as I always have done. CBT doesn't seem to be effective for me because it pertains to challenging my beliefs but all of my symptoms are physical and I have zero emotional or stress triggers any more. I acknowledge and find comfort in the fact that this started as anxiety and panic attacks but I feel that my nervous system is now feeling the after effects of sustained heightened anxiety and need to manage and treat that, instead.
Wow, I have really rambled on here. I apologise but I think this is the first time I've tried to articulate any of this stuff in writing.
I'm just going to summarise with a quick TL;DR:
My heart thuds painfully and uncomfortably with skipped beats and faintness, nausea, chest pressure upon standing up, bending down or climbing the stairs. I am unable to work and running out of money/goodwill from loved ones. I believe this is due to an overstimulated vagus nerve but doctors don't want to explore this. Meds don't agree with me. What can I do? Has anybody else experienced this?
Oh, also... Should have put this at the top. I'm male, 24, 6'2" and weigh between 11-12 stone. My blood pressure is on the higher end of normal but I believe this is because I am tall and slim. I have very poor circulation and this has got worse because I haven't been able to be active. I used to be fit but now I am incredibly unfit because of all this but I eat healthily, don't drink, no caffeine, no bad sugars, no junk food, no smoking, nothing fun like that.
Sorry about this ridiculously long post and thanks for reading if you got to the end.