I'm worried - please reply :)x

[Ljthompson10]

Hi again

I haven't been on here for about a month and am very proud of myself.
I have had a horrendous time with intrusive thoughts and frustrating repetitive thoughts (some which don't even mean anything, they may even be repetitive mental pictures/colours etc).

I have had HOCD, POCD, Suicide OCD, a fear of forgetting things (which was horrible), and MANY, MANY more. I have had a horrific time. I also have minor compulsions but not loads. So whether this is true OCD I'm not 100% sure.

Anyway, I have made great improvements in the last month, to the point where I had a very good 2 straight weeks with less thoughts than I have ever had. However, in the last week ALL the thoughts have come back. And I feel trapped, crazy and frustrated.

I have got a fantastic life and have got loads of things to look forward too. And I want to stop these intrusive thoughts (maybe "OCD").

So, I am considering seeing a GP about it next week as I am SO SO motivated to get rid of it. And that motivation is something I have never lacked. I'm motivated in everything I do.

However I'm worrying that I will never get rid of it. I have heard the success rate of CBT is just 80%. What if I'm in that 20%, even if I try my best at it (which I know I deffo will!), I'm terrified I will live with this forever and I know how much living I have to do and how much opportunities i have to succeed in life. I love life deep down!!

Anyway. Has anyone got any tips on HOW TO BEAT INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS!!!!!?????

And can you give your opinion on what I'm worrying about, I just don't want to be in that 20% (that is if I have OCD)

I'm so determined to beat this!!!!!

Thankyou - there are some very helpful people on here and I have decided to use private messaging now that I'm not as reliant on reasurrance seeking!!

[viking111]

I am pretty sure that you will get through this. I got through it myself with only the help of mynameisterry and this forum, so I am really positive that with therapy you will too.

[Ljthompson10]

But I'm terrified that I will not. I just want to know that I can if I put my mind to it :(

[Kuatir]

You've had two great weeks, remember that. You already know you can feel better. Getting help should improve things even more. These things take time and you will definitely have ups and downs as you find out the best way to manage your issues.

[Ljthompson10]

Thanks for the reply.

I have always been such as happy boy who loves life. And the fact I have certain 'issues' makes me so sad. I know if I can get through this I will, but I am so so scared I will have this forever and I can't live like that. I'm a happy boy

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I just want to know I will be helped if I put my 100% all into this.

I have an incredible year coming up!!

I want to enjoy it to the max

[Ljthompson10]

Anyone?? :(

I am so determined to beat this - but want to know that I can!????

[Catherine S]

Yes you can. You're a happy boy after all.

ISB

[Ljthompson10]

Thankyou!!

I'm a very happy boy but these intrusive thoughts and feeling like I may not ever beat them really gets me down.

I couldn't think of anything worse. You know:(??

[Catherine S]

Happy boys should only think happy thoughts, and as in the song from the Disney movie Frozen, you owe it to yourself to...let it go.

ISB

[Ljthompson10]

Ahhaha thankyou. I love Disney!!!!

And it's hard you know! (I'm sure you do ahah)

But I have read not everyone gets cured but surely I will if I try??????:(

I'm fine a lot of the time when I'm distracted anyway