Thoughts about something that DID happen

[mismashful2]

Things have gotten out of hand. I can't control the thoughts anymore. I went to my psychologist yesterday but hadn't had the chance to talk about it, because we talked about other therapy options.
I'm so lost, I'll keep thinking about this forever

[Dave1]

I'm so lost, I'll keep thinking about this forever

I'm sorry you are feeling like this. Occasionally, if I get bad prolonged anxiety I also feel it'll never end, but eventually it always does for one reason or another. I believe if you try to change your life for the better (reduce stress, increase security, increase enjoyment etc) then the anxiety will naturally reduce - like bad weather clearing up.

[Just A Person]

To the OP, I would suggest that most all people did some variation of the theme when they were kids. Curiosity, raging hormones, changing bodies....what a weird time! And yes, it begins before puberty.

So, please don't worry about punishing yourself over something virtually everyone does.

There are people in this world who have committed horrible acts and they have been forgiven and they have forgiven themselves and are moving forward. Why must you carry this burden?

If I were your judge I would say, "The only thing you are guilty of is being a normal human being. Go forth, live your life and have peace in your heart! Case closed!"

[Loloo]

This was so weird to read as when I was a kid, me and my friend did the same thing, but the difference is that I know that kids do like to experiment and that's all. Me and my friend have talked about that as we are adults and just laugh about it, take it a little bit easier on yourself!