So I still have parasthesia and mycoknic jerks in my arms and significant pain in shoulders, hands and fingers. But what has rely got me down is the thigh, calf, butt and foot pain bilateral. It's like a burning tight pain like I have worked out, sore if you will. But the bones hurt too. My knees and heels are really bad and that's not nuerological. So what gives. I have shoot I g pain that goes fro my neck in to the tops of my shoulders. Also down my arms. My doc thinks it a CERVICAL issue and is sending me for an mri and back to the neurologist for my first nerve conduction study test (emg)god help me. I want it done of my legs and arms. My question is this. I looked up peripheal nueropathy and what came up with it was this multi system atrophy that affects your aunotomical nervous system, like blood pressure, heart rate, breathing rate, bladder control, digestion, muscle rigidity, your pupils, muscle control and so on. It said by 7 years your dead. A systems fail. What the hell. Now I'm checking my heart rate with my old stethoscope from when I was a paramedic and my blood pressure. Checking dilation of my eyes for dilation, is my digestion working right? Etc. Etc, when you have a panic attack your breathing is altered so now I think my nervous system is failing cuz I'm short of breathe. Woke up today nauseas and though oh god my digestion is failing. That is scary disease right up there with king **s. Anyone ever hear of this. It's rare I think. Hopefully. I have something going on nuerologically but also with joints. Makes no sense. I hit 44 and fell apart. My father in law passed a,few days ago. Now we are really alone with two kids. The pressure is so bad I cry daily. I can't die I won't allow it. I HAVE TO SEE MY BABIES GROW UP. SORRY BUT I'M QUITE AN EMOTION WRECK STILL WAITING FOR A PSYCHIATRIST. HAVE A REFERALL BUT WAS TOLD NO OPENINGS TILL JANUARY. THIS IS NEW YORK AND I CAN'T FIND A FRIGGIN PSYCHIATRIST. EITHER THEY DON'T TAKE INSURANCE OR THERE NOT TAKING PATIENCE. I FEEL HOPELESS.