Hello,Johno
so sorry to hear you are having a horrid time ...it is so bewildering when it comes out the blue .so scary and unexpected..but if you read here so common as well .
excellent you are getting meds and counselling ....believe me you will get better honest .....it took time to get you to this place of distress .......and takes time to get well . patience my friend...........and talk here ....educate yourself on the journey .
your wife will be anxious too of course ........if she wants to chat here to maybe?
i will say to her now .that I know hard it is for a partner to cope with this ....the feelings are hard while she supports you .
I am close to my husband but sometimes we cannot help each other ...we need support outside our little unit
if your partner wants to chat .........am always about usually and she can PM me anytime for a chat or my view on stuff . or just a cyber hug ....which she can pass on to you .
take care
xxx