After a very unpleasant period of employment, I stood up to my boss last Monday asking her not to speak to me in the manner that she does as I found it unfair and unecessary. (I never usually stand up for myself, preferring not to for peace of mind - but had just had enough of being treated like a doormat). The result was probably one of the most unplesant experiences of my life. She let rip at me, calling me unprofessional etc etc. I ended up resigning!
My husband was really proud of me for sticking up for myself but I am (as usual) looking at this from a negative point of view and the whole experience has really knocked my self esteem.
A couple of days later I secured another position with one of the country largest providers of its kind via an agency.
When I received the contract my new employer required a reference from my most recent employer - OH NO!!!! I contacted the agency in a bit a panicky state confirming that it was highly unlikely that my most recent employer would provide a favourable reference. He told me not to worry and said that he would speak to my new employer confirming that my previous employer had taken my resignation quite personally.
All has been sorted and I have told that everything is OK but guess what................ I can't believe that everything is going to be OK. I'm convinced my previous employer will give my a poor reference, I'm convinced my new employer will think crikey what have we employed here and and I am convinced that I a made an absolute fool of myslef with the agency.
I am starting my new job on Monday and am absolutely terrified before I even start.