Originally Posted by
emmegee
All so familiar, thanks to each of the above posters for sharing. I have had HA for about 40 years! I am currently 46, and my first scare came during adolescence when I felt like I couldn't swallow. A few years later it was that I couldn't take deep breaths. Of course, at the time I knew nothing of "anxiety" nevermind "health anxiety". Had a few episodes of being absolutely frightened of getting cancer throughout teens and twenties. I think during those years I was active enough that exercise kept most issues at bay.
My HA has gone through the roof in the past ten years... now that I am aging I am falling into the demographic where these "diagnoses" become more reasonable. I have had friends diagnosed and passed away from cancer. My MIL died of esophageal cancer ten years ago and what followed was a year long belief that I also had esophageal cancer. I saw specialists, even an had an upper endoscopy. Beginning to end this lasted a whole year. Now I know it was most probably a combination of weight gain instigating reflux and some esophageal spasms and globus hystericus... along with me being hyper-aware of what I was "feeling". So I did have a legitimate initial symptom, but ended up blowing it out of proportion when it didn't go away on it's own over the course of, say, a month.
My next big one was about seven years ago when I was absolutely convinced I had MS. I did have some legitimate symptoms that are still around and a mystery. Out of the blue severe headaches, tingling in extremities, dizziness, alcohol intolerance, ringing in the ears, exhaustion, etc. My neurologist told me I most likely got a virus and these symptoms were in response to that; "post-viral syndrome", similar to chronic fatigue syndrome. Probably also some perimenopausal hormone drops influencing this too. I still suffer from this but it doesn't worry me too much anymore. Had a whole slew of tests and all came up fine.
Last year a coworker was diagnosed with bulbar onset ALS (which I suspected after noticing her symptoms for a year). I started "feeling" all sorts of symptoms related to ALS... weakness, etc. Of course, logically I knew there was nothing to this... but after about a month of fighting my negative thoughts, I had an all-out anxiety breakdown that took months to pull me out of. Ended up going back on antidepressants, started yoga, saw my therapist regularly, tried to keep busy, and used this forum for support.
And here I am again, started feeling a "pill stuck in chest" a little over a month ago... after almost a year of feeling great. I just tried to ignore it hoping it would go away... it didn't. So the obsessive catastrophising began. Esophageal cancer of course. Logically knowing this is exponentially more likely to be reflux or a slew of other issues. I started yoga last week and increased my antidepressants (I stayed on a low maintenance dose throughout the last year). I'm hoping I can nip this in the bud before it gets as bad as last year.