I know I've posted 3 threads in the past few days. I'm so sorry for being annoying, but I can't cope with this anxiety any more.
Nobody understands. I can't talk to anyone about it. My family get annoyed when I bring up my 'irrational' worries and they're frustrated that their reassurance doesn't help.
I'm 15 and all my friends are out doing fun stuff this summer completely carefree, and I hate myself for being stuck in worrying the whole time.
I did my GCSEs last month and was predicted great results but I was in such a bad state I could barely concentrate, so I probably did crap. Everyone's going to be so disappointed in me, although they won't say it to my face which makes it even worse.
I had ambitions to go to a good university after leaving school in 2 years time. But now even my mum said she doesn't think I'd be able to handle going to uni unless I was living at home because of my anxiety. Anxiety has just messed up everything.
I don't know what to do. I'm not trying to be dramatic, but sometimes I don't want to live this life anymore. I've already fully convinced myself I'm going to die of one health problem or another, be it cancer or rabies or whatever, so what's the point.
Don't worry, I'm NOT suicidal. I would NEVER do anything. I just want to feel better. I'm tired and feel so helpless at the moment.
I know I'm extremely lucky to live the life I have with a loving family, great friends, a home, an education, good health (supposedly), etc, etc but I just feel crappy right now. It makes me feel horribly ungrateful, because I know so many people out there have it so so much worse and deal with terrible things and here I am complaining. My anxiety makes me so irritable as well which makes me feel even guiltier.
I was prescribed mirtazapine but it's now been switched to escitalopram 20mg which I took a few years ago at 10mg and didn't seem to help much. I doubt it will be much use. Feel like I'm going to be an anxious mess my whole life.
What should I do? Please can someone give me some advice or maybe say a prayer for me if you don't mind.