Re: i just want to relax!
Hi,
I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through a difficult time at the moment. I know exactly what it's like not being able to relax... I don't even know the meaning of the word anymore, I haven't done it for that long!
The only thing I can suggest is that you should avoid doing your compulsion, instead of scrubbing your flat clean, why don't you instead do something you like? For example, read a good book, catch up with a friend, watch a program on television. Although the compulsions make your skin itch and you feel disgusting if you don't complete them, they're only feeding your obsession and making it even worse...
What is your OCD primarily linked too? Your past, mistakes, a fear of something?
You should seek therapy for this and also maybe try medication if you're open minded to see what kind of things they can suggest. You'll feel better in the long run for it.
All the best,
Becky
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