Hi,
I've had anxiety all of my adult life (mainly social) but it's under control now - mainly through a process of not letting myself avoid things and building up that life experience. I still feel anxious often, but it's to a level where I can still do all the things I need to do. I'm so used to the feeling that I just take it as a given.
However, I have a big presentation coming up at work next week and I'm not sure how I'm going to get through it. I've been able to do small and short presentations in the past with the help of beta blockers but nothing on this level. Even beta blockers (40mg) only take the edge off. My anxiety is bizarre, mentally, I can get things under control... I'm not worried per se as I know the topic well. However, physically, I have almost no control over the trembling voice, mind going blank, shakes etc. It's humiliating and my physical symptoms are very, very strong even when my mind is focused and clear.
To my surprise, my GP agreed to prescribe a small supply of diazepam (2mg) at my request. I've never asked for this before and it will be my first time taking it. However, I'm worried about the potential for feeling drowsy as I'll need to be switched on. I have a high tolerance to alcohol and my adrenaline will by sky high so i'd have thought I'd be okay but after reading some scary posts online I'm not so sure.
Long term, I plan to try and get some training or specific help for pubic speaking. If anyone has any recommendations I'd appreciate it.
Short term, should I try the diazepam? I also have my usual beta blockers.