Hi Everyone
I havent posted here in three years! Ive been doing quite well. Dont get me wrong I still have Anxiety but for the most part I can calm myself and just tell myself (most of the time) that most of the things Im feeling is down to anxiety. As I said I havent posted here for three years, and what did I post about three years ago? My smear test. Here I am again posting about the same things as I have just had my 3 yearly routine smear. To be honest I have been waiting for the smear invite letter for months now, dreading getting home to check the post to see if it had arrived! I got myself worked up before the letter even came :( I was going to wait until I came back from holiday (going in couple of days) but Id already convinced myself of the worst before I even had the test so thought I would get it over with. I thought I cant feel any worse than I do right now...WRONG! I feel terrible, my hands are shaking while im typing this. Its going to be a few weeks until I get my results and I dont know how Im going to cope. I am so scared. this is what happen the last time I had my smear. The last one came back normal so now Im convinced this one wont. Im sat in work and all I want to do is cry, i feel sick and cant focus on anything else.