Re: Feeling overwhelmed
You are allowed to contemplate things that affected you profoundly, there has to be a reasonable balance within that long and hard gazing backwards however, or you remain there and lose light and shape relative to where you deserve to be going, forward no matter how slow, not stuck and pinned. Are there things you like getting from the supermarket? You deserve these things, they will help you feel more okay than you would feel going without them. There is always time to reflect and hurt, it's necessary but do not torture yourself and succumb to the belief that all there is, is that unfortunate feeling of imprisonment, you are very brave and beautiful.
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''...an utter depression of soul which I can compare to no earthly sensation more properly than to the after-dream of the reveller upon opium - the bitter lapse into everyday life, the hideous dropping off of the veil. There was an iciness, a sinking, a sickening of the heart, an unredeemed dreariness of thought which no goading of the imagination could torture into aught of the sublime.''