Sorry to hear you've had such a horrific start to the week! That's a truly horrible Monday right there. I agree you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. You genuinely tried, you wanted to go, but at some point you do have to be kind to yourself and say 'okay, I've really, really tried but today it doesn't work'' Tomorrow is a new day and things might feel a whole lot different. If you were an athlete training for an event and you didn't manage to run the amount of miles you wanted to do, you'd find it easier to accept disappointment, and that you'd just had a bad day and know that next time will be different. When things don't go well for me, I try to see it like that. xx