Hi
For quite some time now I have been dealing with some pretty horrific thoughts.I think about them all the time. My thoughts and images in my head are that I have hurt someone in the past.
Inside, deep down I know that it is not something that I would have done and I would never of wanted to have done anything of the sort, but needless to say the thought is there in my head, and I get the big WHAT IF I DID THAT?
I have been a real worrier all of my life and I am now at my worst that I have ever been.
I dont want to harm myself in any way but these thoughts and images are driving me crazy, and id rather not live with it.
I am waiting to see a counseller at the moment but as always you get put on an NHS waiting list and the last thing I need is to wait.
I know that I am a good person, I am kind and I dont think I have it in me to hurt anyone. I just need to know why I would of thought of it in the first place.
Any help or suggestions would be greatly appreciated