Dear all,
last months I can't remove from my head the fear that my family members will die and I will be left alone. I'm 26, don't have kids or husband, my grandparents are very old, my dad is very ill. My mom is the only family member I have a really good relationship with - can't imagine life without her (I'm not overly attached, she's just very dear to me).
The fear of being left alone one day is paralyzing me. It's unimaginable to me, considering that I've had anxiety issues, depressive states and have trouble with emotions.
Today, when I was coming home from work, I started to cry when I reached my street cause I imagined how it would be going back home, knowing that there's no one there and that I'm all alone. And that all I have left is the memories of the past and I felt terrible emptiness.
I tried to ignore it, but I can't pretend it's not bothering me. :( I feel like my whole life now is centered around waiting for "the inevitable". It's very difficult to function like this.
Anyone of you has experiences of coping with this or still has the same problem?