Hey everyone! I'm new to this and it's my first ever post. Basically I'll explain my entire story. Iv suffered from health anxiety since I was 6 years old. What triggered it was my great nan died of a heart attack and it was my first ever experience of death as a child. Anyway a few weeks later I lost sight of my dad for a split second in telco.... I had my first ever panic attack but me being 6 years old assumed I was having a heart attack just like my late nan. Anyway that set me off for a few years worrying about dying, I once caught my dad crying because it was so painful seeing his little girl go through such worry! I was picking out my eyelashes etc. running up and down the hall way to ensure my heart was still beating. I got over that, I hit 17... My boyfriend broke up with me and a month later I got health anxiety again. I was put on vitals pram which didn't work for me so they changed to fluoxetine 20mg which did me well for a ew years until I decided to stop them abruptly ... I was fine for a few weeks then out of nowhere on holiday my vision went funny and I was convinced I was dying. I got a taxi back to the caravan with my boyfriend and I didn't step foot out of the caravan again all week. I was convinced I'd die. Got home. They upped my dose to 40 mg... Everything was fine... Fast forward 2 years. So 2 weeks ago I was in my boyfriends car singing along to take that when all of a sudden the headache I'd had all day came to a head and sent an almighty pain through the side of my head .. I don't know what happened but I felt as though my whole body went heavy, I felt like I could not move, my boyfriend had to stop the car , I got out and paced up and down for a bit, got back in, he had to drive me home... My heart was racing, my body felt numb, my head was weird, I just shut my eyes until I got home, I went to bed and fell straight to sleep. I was fine for the next few days but an incident happened at work... A little boy banged his head and he went limp in my arms and was just staring blankly and went pure white, I thought he was dead so I panicked and cried for hours. Fortunately he was fine. Few days later I was in prezzo with my sister and my boyfriend.... I started getting hot, eyes went funny, felt sick, exhausted, I rushed them to get the bill and as we were walking I felt like my legs were Ganna collapse beneath me I darted to the car!!! The whole time I was trying to compose myself, I've only been with this bloke 3 months and I'm embarrassed about all this! I'm scared I'm ganna die in front of him. Anyway now I'm a wreck im scared for the next time my limbs decide to go numb, I was at work earlier (luckily I work with my mum who also suffers ... Her name on here is herbie73 ) I broke down to her. I'm convinced I'm either dying of a brain tumour or pancreatic cancer. Reason for the tumour is because my right arm feels like it keeps hurting and going dead and I nearly faint and pancreatic cancer because I have drunk nearly every night for 3 years due to anxiety !!! :/ and I have a pain in my upper left abdomen!!! The doctor checked my eyes etc checked the strength in my arms blood pressure said. Was fine! But I feel like I know there's something not right with my body!!! Help its ruining my life!!!!!!
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