I used to be quite confident, bubbly and very outgoing in my teens but after starting a family and reaching adulthood, my anxiety to socialise has become prevalent. I started uni and I haven't even gone to any lectures or seminars for 3 weeks! I am on top of my work, but the horrid thought of doing a presentation or working amongst a group is so daunting for me! I knew we had a presentation coming up and I missed it because I didn't want to do it! Thankfully it does not count towards my final grade BUT that is really not the point. I am a liability and I cannot keep letting myself down! I told myself this week will be a fresh start and instead, I just went into town and took my mind off it instead! I am in fear if going to a seminar and being told we have to work in groups and do a presentation. I hate it so much! I am also severely deaf and have a noticable speech impediment so that makes it so much more complex and as a result, I have missed it completely and did all my work independently at home. My handbook says that warnings will be giving out at the end of the term so I am waiting for that day to come because I know it will! I have let myself and my family down. I am not sure if you'd categorise this as a social anxiety or not? But the fear and panic I feel when we get told we have to work in groups and present is just horrendous and I hate it so much I hate the person I am! I am lonely, I have no one to talk to and I just find it difficult to keep it together.