So my ocd is attacking is attacking things I love again.

Ok, so I love cats, always have and I would never want to harm an animal period. But my roomates just got a kitten in our apartment and now I'm getting thoughts that I want to harm it. Last night the kitten was crawling underneath the chairs and I told my roomate when the kitten crawled under her chair and when she was getting up it looked like it was crushing the kitten, although I'm not sure, sometimes my eyes play tricks on me especially with ocd, but anyways that's what I thought and I hesitated before warning my roomate and now I'm a mess because I hesitated and had a thought about wanting to harm the kitten and now I'm worried that I'm going to have this the whole time the kitten is here. I don't know why this is happening, I love cats.