I have no one that loves me. Not my mother, father, sisters, or brothers. My children love me but they are so small. My mother tells me they will turn away from me when they are older. I've been betrayed by everyone now. I'm alone. If it weren't for my children I would never leave my bed again. I'm just a shell that works and takes care of them. I try to not let other people see my pain. Especially my children. I feel like I am failing them. I just want time to pass. I am watching it pass. It's nighttime I can't sleep. Wish someone, anyone would care. No one does. I probably deserve it. It's hard with nothing to look forward to. No one to ask about your day. I wish I were anyone else but me.