I'm now on the highest dose of 45mg and have been taking Mirtazapine since March.

I had one day back in March when on 15mg of feeling fantastic, euphoric and really happy. Every day since has been just severe depression, no motivation, no energy, high anxiety, no interest in anything.

I do know that if I were to come off the mirtazapine completely I would have much deeper depression than this as I tried to wean myself off them when I first started them and realised that I felt worse without them.

But I'm not entirely sure what I should be feeling on them. Are they just to take the edge off depression? Or should I be feeling happy from antidepressants?

This is the first time I have ever stuck to taking antidepressants after a bad reaction in 2008 to fluoxetine so I'm not sure what effect antidepressants actually have.