Hi,
Im new here and i feel this is the best place to be understood about my health anxiety. I have been suffering since around july last year and it all started with symptoms that i googled to give myself ovarian cancer, which turned out to be a small cyst!
Since then it seems it has been constant diagnosing myself with different cancers, i have gone from ovarian, oesophagus, throat, breast and brain and now I'm currently suffering from fear of lymphoma.
Im 23 years old and generally healthy but I'm concerned about a lump i have found behind my right ear under the base of my skull, its a fixed lump and very hard around 10 pence size. I have been to the doctors for them to say they think its just an enlarged lymph node that become fixed from a bad infection and more than likely won't go down (?) and I've also had a FBC which showed everything seems normal. But this still hasn't stopped my worrying and I feel as though I'm going insane with fear. The GP has reffered me to ENT and I'm due to go in 2 weeks time but I'm so frightened its going to be something sinister.
Im due to get married in april and i feel this is probably what has brought this all on, i constantly feel as though I'm going to die and leave my partner behind. I feel so upset everyday with the thought of it, almost to the point where I'm scared to be happy about my wedding or anything in the future incase anything happens me.
Sorry to ramble on just looking for some positive thoughts/advice
xx