I'm convinced I've got cancer. I don't know which one specifically. My HA is mostly to do with cancer and I can't seem to escape it. Everywhere I look there's a newspaper article, a tv programme or advert that talks about people getting cancer and people dying of it. My brain is convinced I have got cancer or if I haven't got it yet, I will get it soon. I feel like I'm one of those people who won't be around to see her daughter grow up. I have symptoms (constant nausea, pains in my shoulder, changing bowel habits) which I'm certain are linked to cancer. I've been to the dr and they've tested me for various things but the tests came back clear. I was also tested for ovarian cancer which came back clear so I can count that one out but there's so many other kinds I could have. I always check for lumps and weird symptoms but then I read that some cancers don't even have any symptoms and by the time Drs catch it, it's too far advanced. I wish I didn't think like this, I'm absolutely terrified. I'm not scared of dying, I'm scared of getting cancer and dying slowly and dying young. I have a 7 year old which doesn't help my fears because my biggest fear after getting cancer is leaving her behind. I don't want to go to CBT because I don't think it would work for me. Is anyone else like me?