That's the biggest problem for me. It feels physically painful to stop, far more painful (in the moment) than whatever I'm doing to my skin. Which is so, so stupid.
Hearing other people say that they have to "finish" whatever harmful behavior they're doing or they get twitchy/uncomfortable is so easy to relate to. It's like I'm addicted. In the moment, picking/biting/chewing seems like the most important thing in the world.
I've even caught myself doing it in my sleep, as I wake up with blood on my fingers and pillow.
I wish I knew how to stop once I start. I mostly just try preventative measures, like wearing gloves or having things to fidget with. But once I start, it's almost impossible to stop. I've been this way my entire life.
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