So a recent encounter made me realize the extreme paranoia I have surrounding fears of STDs, specifically herpes. I've avoided sex with many of my partners because I was afraid of getting something. The other day though I was intimate for the first time with someone I'm seeing, ad I am convinced he gave me herpes from giving me oral sex. I've talked about our sexual histories and he assured me he was clean and he gets tested, but know I'm feeling guilty I didn't ask him for a blood test as proof. I can't get the thought out of ym head that I have it