Okay this might sound a bit nutty even for me but I want to get it out there to see if anyone has felt like this or something similar.

I'm embarrassed to admit I only went to 1 session with my therapist, I really want to go back because things are getting worse slowly and I need the help, here's a big thing that's holding me back though.

As many of you know part of CBT involves writing down your thoughts, feelings, the likelihood of them happen, what's the worst that could happen, etc. Now I am somewhat scared to even write some of them down because I worry somehow they might happen because of it. I know that's totally irrational but it's not something I can just shake.

Has anybody went through something similar & any ways of reducing my anxiety of this, it's holding me back & I feel so very stupid because of it. I really want to get better!