With so much lately about Lynda Bellingham everywhere lately and now the sad news that she didn't get her one last wish to see Christmas, my already out of control HA has got a whole lot worse...Being an ibs sufferer for many years it has changed since June since I got a bout of gastroenteritis on holiday for 3 days in Spain. Since then, I have had horrendous bloating on most days at work (not as bad at the weekends..But not work stress) and the wind has been much worse and embarrassing...prob that's why it is worse during the week cos I am at work and can't get rid of it...now for the last couple of weeks I am getting really bad low backache and twinges in lower abdomen so of course now think it is now cancer and I am sat here crying because I am too scared to go to the drs and be told the worst as I am the most negative person on the planet and would just give up at the first post. I am going thru all the scenario of being told..telling the family and then going through the abyss...I have tried CBT..useless as I am too negative...I know we all have to die but I hate it when you see all these 'how I coped' stories because you don't cope really...you just wait till there's no more they can do...sorry to rant on..had a really bad night and I am off work on holiday this week thank goodness. I am 55 so no the chances are that it isn't going to be good.