Re: An update,..Some thoughts...
I'm sorry - this must be so challenging to face.
I can't say I know exactly how you feel, but I'm also dealing with a couple of things where I'm sort of throwing my all at a last resort and hoping for the best, with the massive fear that it won't work out or will just get worse. And then what?
I do think it is incredibly important for you to put your best foot forward and really, truly try to work hard at this therapy, but it's equally as important for you to not pressure yourself so much and just take each moment as it comes. I know - that's such contradictory advice! Perhaps your therapist can help you strike a good balance? I don't know much about that particular type of therapy to be honest.
Regardless, you've survived this far - you will continue to do so. You've got this, and we're all rooting for you!!
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