At work, I'm just freaked out by having people around me, especially when it's quiet... My stomach is churning constantly, I always have headaches... just been out to sit in my car, talked with a doctor, couldn't string a sentence together, howled like a demented person... This is making me ill - something's got to give... what on earth did I do to deserve this? The only people who care about me can't deal with my problem so I have to pretend I'm OK... I'm losing it, I'm so desperately alone and I'm stuck with this problem, I've tried everything and I mean everything and... My colleagues don't give a s*** about me, they just think I'm a maniac and I am... but if I gave up work there'd be no way back, I have no partner, no support network... this life STINKS.