Hello everyone, let me start from the beginning in the shortest way possible so I can describe my symptoms and what happened.
Symptoms (best way I can describe without sounding general) :
Enlarged vision (as if I’m watching the world from a magnifying glass)
Ears popping
Anxious ( can’t tell if I’m anxious from the weird visual experiences I’m having or I’m having the weird visual experiences because I’m anxious )
I always have the “derealization” feeling but a mild feeling unless I start overthinking and it gets worse and I feel like im getting dizzy my vision gets worse
Here’s my story I always lived a normal life, occasional stress nothing abnormal I didn’t have a family member or friend pass away or anything that would cause traumatic stress. I am an occasional smoker of five years.
I got REALLY sick one week in December, 2017, and continued to go to work thinking it will go away but my cough got worse and worse so I went to the doctor and he told me I have Bronchitis. He prescribed me Levofloxacin (in the Levaquin family of antibiotics) ( I didn’t know how awful this drug was until I took it ). I took the dose my first night, along with Montekleust (not an antibiotic) and went to sleep. I woke up in the middle of the night for no reason feeling dizzy and extremely weird. I couldn’t fall back asleep so I thought I would distract myself from this awful feeling (which was anxiety but I wasn’t aware at the time) I started to watch a show to distract myself until I felt like I wasn’t in my own body, like it wasn’t me holding the phone. I can feel blood going through my body, it’s hard to swallow, I was confused and thought I was dying when in fact it was my very first panic/anxiety attack. I went to the hospital because I wasn’t sure what was going on with me, as soon as I arrived at the hospital I felt stupid for even going all my symptoms have passed I felt completely normal again. I waited three hours and left because the doctor didn’t come up to me yet and I felt better so I told myself why bother?
At 4PM later that day I felt the weird visual feelings coming back, and I started to get anxiety because the enlarged visual feeling was weird. The next three days were a nightmare, I had constant severe anxiety, trembling, and I was always scared of what I was feeling. I decided to stop taking my antibiotics, and as soon as I did I felt relief. My anxiety went away but the weird visual feelings stayed with me idk if it’s derealization. A week passed, and I still felt them. At that point I did a lot of googling and convinced myself my congestion is giving me anxiety so that’s why I have derealization. My nose was clogged, and my ears were popping for a month. I went to an ENT who gave me some medication and was completely useless when I described my visual problems all she told me was go to a eye doctor. Ugh.
But anyways, there are days where I barely feel the derealization WITH or WITHOUT anxiety, and there are days when it gets really bad and it gives me anxiety or anxiety makes my visual symptoms worse.
Idk what to do?
Is it anxiety that’s causing my weird visual feelings?
Is there another problem with me that’s causing this?
My ears are still popping sometimes is it from anxiety or do I have an ear problem that I’m aware of?
I go to work, I am happy, and everything seems fine MOST of the time. I try to tell myself this visual enlarged disturbance that goes on 24/7 from mild to severe sometimes isn’t a big deal I’m alive that’s what matters and I should be happy.
But why is it still here? It still brings me anxiety. I don’t want it there, and it’s bothering me not knowing why it’s happening and why I have it and what’s causing it.
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It bothers me to the point where I think about it everyday, because I experience it everyday. It’s been almost two months.