I have poorly controlled severe gastroparesis and my GI is saying there isn't anything else he can do for me. I was already very depressed with high anxiety (I'm on an antidepressant) but this just confirmed that I am a hopeless case. I see a counselor but he isn't a good fit and the waiting list for mental health services in my area is 420 days so don't jave any option of switching. I have suicidal ideation but don't habe the guts to do it. I'm 15 years in recovery from anorexia and I am starting to relapse.