I would go to couples counselling but I am scared that it would lead to a permanent split. I have also been told that for couples counselling to work, I have to be in a slightly better place than I am now. If I get through this current bout I will try to broach the subject with my husband again. He's been very dismissive in the past. Our marriage has been difficult for years, largely because of alcohol abuse. When he's sober, he's a nice man but alcohol turns him into a lying so and so.
I know the answer for me is to build my own self esteem and resilience but I am finding this impossible at the moment. Medication can only work up to a point. I am just so exhausted with fighting and trying to be normal. I am like a deflated balloon.
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Thanks Ben. I have sent you a friend request x
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I am on the waiting list for psychotherapy on the NHS (CBT) and I have just started to go the Listening Place - 2nd session tomorrow. I have a counsellor too but although I like her very much, not sure she is quite right for me.