I can't sleep...it is past 1am here (where I am in Canada), and I can't sleep. I feel tired though. First of all, I don't want to go to school tomorrow, because I don't want to go to that one class that my teacher is a bitch..especially to me...you would know if you read one of my other messages. Anyways...I don't feel comfortable around her, and she treats me like I am a child. There is more to it, but it was a couple of weeks ago (I think that long ago), that she ended up triggering an anxiety attack for me...which is so rare for me to have...usually I get panic attacks...you know, the ones that happen without a trigger. So, I know if I go to class tomorrow and ask her about how I am doing, she is going to let me ask her questions...she SHHHHHH's me or tells me to shut up, and told me that I talk too much...but I am only asking questions...and sometimes I am not right exactly to teh point, but that is how she is...and she doesn't have patience for me, and I think she sees me as a threat because knows I am not dumb. Anyways..you can see how I am rambling on about her...and I want to do more...but I won't bore you with how much of a control freak, rigid, non-patient and pretenious person she is. So what is the point of going to class...I have one more class this week with her, and tow next then....schools out for summer (well really it is stil spring).
Also, I have had to take so many painkillers to stop the pain in my foot and ankle. I first didn't feel anything...so I took anohter and another...now the pain is gone...but I feel high from it too. I took only 1 mg of clonazapam...but I don't want to take more and conk out...I would rather drift off to sleep. I know I am feeling anxiety about school tomorrow, so that is why I mainly think I can't sleep. I have been trying to control my thoughts so it doesn't turn into an attack...breathing....ok......I won't let myself lose it. And I feel so tired in my head...but I cann't seeem to sleep! But at least my ankle is not hurting anymore. Well...if anyone is there....I am here. Playing video games. Awake...but tired. ARgh....