Hello folks,
been a long time since I posted on here.
I've finished my part time studying, moved into a more interesting role at work and wife is getting better health wise.
Overall, I'm a lot better with only some anxiety now and then and mostly what's left is the depression. This is on and off depending on what I'm doing or if I'm bored.
As of Monday 10th my anxiety was triggered from a conversation with my wife. I was anxious for 2-3 days and then I just felt depressed. During the Bank holiday weekend I tried so hard to be happy, positive and in a good mood...basically fighting the sadness and low emotions. The pressure came to a point and Monday evening I just started crying...I guess I couldn't take it any more.
I realised that fighting the emotions was only adding pressure on me and the release was eventually to start crying.
So yesterday I just allowed the feelings to be. I was surprised to see that while the feeling was there it didn't really affect me that much. Depression came and went throughout the day and I acknowledged its presence. I didn't feel anxious and in fact I felt content.
This morning I saw my therapist and shared all this with him. His view was that this is a pivotal moment on my journey. I feel fairly tired today and less upbit than yesterday. Feeling low and sad has been there on and off a bit more today.
My question to you all is how do you accept the feelings? How does this acceptance work for you? How does it manifest itself?
Thank you